Whatever I thought would happen this Saturday didn’t happen. Instead, I took part in a cross-country event at Bedok reservoir. 4 girls including me ran as a team and we came in second. If I ran faster, acsi (girls) could have been first. Anyway, I guess I shouldn’t be too demoralised since the maximum I’ve run at one shot is probably only not even 2 km this year. So to finish 4.5 km without stopping was already a relatively good achievement for me, for now. I never thought I’d be doing something like this in my lifetime.

Talking about exercise, lately, I’ve realised my physical health has worsened a lot since secondary school days. Nowadays I’m running slower and getting weaker. Although I still managed to get a gold for NAPHA last year, I’ve suddenly come to realise I might not reach that if I don’t buck up soon. Sometimes I feel like blaming it on thalassemia minor, because, well, maybe that’s what’s making me tired when I run. When I look at others run, I always wonder whether they all feel as tired, and whether I could have pushed my physical limits more. Perhaps it’s trauma because I’ve felt really dizzy/weak/horrible after exercise quite a few times in my life, and maybe that results in my fear of getting tired.

Whatever the case, I shall relish feeling healthy for the next 2 days.